36 weeks, most story of my last child birth towards the end.
Going to my doctor at 36 weeks pregnant just gave me more of a warning that I'm almost there. I'm almost at the finish point where I can pop her on out. Am I ready? Tell you the truth I'm as ready as I'm going to get. Even if I wasn't, she will come. I will feel the pain in my belly to my pelvic bone. All I can do is relax and let nature take it's course.
Now the ugly truth is I'm nervous and worried I won't be able to do it again. But my mind always go back to the last epidural I had that I never wanted to get it again. But the pain of childbirth can be overbearing at times. I'm not trying to prove anything as a mom or a women. I just can't put myself in that pain again. So I choice childbirth pain that I will have to suck up and take. Cry if I need to and feel joy when she comes out. I can finally say " I did it" Praying like I did when I was in the hospital to the most high making sure he will release the pain and be with me with everything, I'm glad I got through it. I hope I get through it this time as well with out pain medicine. Even though I was asking for the epidural towards the end. The pain was to much as my partner and nurse cheered me on. I tap out to only hear words that I never thought I would hear.
10cm. dilated time to push as the nurse checked me. Calling in the doctor I had no time to panic as I did low key. The pain, the burning I felt during in between my legs only brought me relief as I knew this was nothing new to me. I felt the same pain as I got my epidural last time as my legs burnt inside ( That's how it felt) I had to pop this baby out as the count down for me to push. There relief I thought as I stop pushing to relax to only find out he was not all the way out. I need the rest of his shoulders and body so I push again as I was tired at this point.
Pop he went as I was in shock that I did it. I was relieved and glad I didn't tare. I can finally say I understand what real child birth feels like. The pain my mother went through the first time. The pain other mothers went through in the old ages.
Some of us get this changes to have and some of us don't but either way we all went through some sort of pain.
I will relive this again in a couple of weeks or days. When ever she decide to come. I will walk around and get ready for her as I have a few things I need to get. I'm ready or maybe I'm not but she is coming and I can't wait. ( Well I can't wait until the pain is over)
Now the ugly truth is I'm nervous and worried I won't be able to do it again. But my mind always go back to the last epidural I had that I never wanted to get it again. But the pain of childbirth can be overbearing at times. I'm not trying to prove anything as a mom or a women. I just can't put myself in that pain again. So I choice childbirth pain that I will have to suck up and take. Cry if I need to and feel joy when she comes out. I can finally say " I did it" Praying like I did when I was in the hospital to the most high making sure he will release the pain and be with me with everything, I'm glad I got through it. I hope I get through it this time as well with out pain medicine. Even though I was asking for the epidural towards the end. The pain was to much as my partner and nurse cheered me on. I tap out to only hear words that I never thought I would hear.
10cm. dilated time to push as the nurse checked me. Calling in the doctor I had no time to panic as I did low key. The pain, the burning I felt during in between my legs only brought me relief as I knew this was nothing new to me. I felt the same pain as I got my epidural last time as my legs burnt inside ( That's how it felt) I had to pop this baby out as the count down for me to push. There relief I thought as I stop pushing to relax to only find out he was not all the way out. I need the rest of his shoulders and body so I push again as I was tired at this point.
Pop he went as I was in shock that I did it. I was relieved and glad I didn't tare. I can finally say I understand what real child birth feels like. The pain my mother went through the first time. The pain other mothers went through in the old ages.
Some of us get this changes to have and some of us don't but either way we all went through some sort of pain.
I will relive this again in a couple of weeks or days. When ever she decide to come. I will walk around and get ready for her as I have a few things I need to get. I'm ready or maybe I'm not but she is coming and I can't wait. ( Well I can't wait until the pain is over)
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