Took a risk

 I took the risk on to only see my heart twist over and over. Exhauted from the mental pain I remember he gave me. Overwhelming life that I never thought I would do alone. 

 Of course love is out if reach I feel everyday. Putting each piece back together. 

 Helping him aches me. The memories come back as it hunts me. Waiting to see if he Knocks on my door. Wondering what I would say.

Nothing has changed but pretend. Go along with it as everyone says. He is free and now he can stay here and help and get out your way. Set up something where he will be a ghost but still do him. Work on him. Fix himself and go as he please.

What about me. What about the pain I went through

 The suffering of my loss.

The sacrifice I took to be responsible.

I know I'm alone. All I have is Yah. I'm going to try my best to become the person my mom would want to see and my beautiful kids.

Not letting things distract me. 

As I fear change everyday, I'm learning I need to take that leap.

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