Time as Birthday around the corner
I have came to this point....well maybe this hour for me to reflect on everything that I have been through or just what I'm missing.
I want to be myself but it seems like I don't fit or maybe I haven't found the right place. What I mean by the right place I'm talking about my career.
I know what I love but does it really fit in society? I have thought about just letting everything go and just go crazy and have a drink or so...ok maybe that means I just want to be my old self again.
Having 4 kids make you look back on life. Where did I go wrong? What turn could I have taken so this wouldn't have happen? Will Mr Right come along? Will I ever LOVE again?
Even though these things might pop up in my mind I know all of it happen for a reason.
Someone told me a long time ago to stop looking at things like they are not a problem. Being happy even if things don't go right. Stop looking at that child like it's a blessing or even just stop being happy because there is no reason to be happy.
I have been living a miserable life for far to long that I have came to realize I was nev er living for myself.
Past my years on this earth I have felt things, heard thing and even done things that I wish I could change but then I would have never learn from my past mistakes. Never saw who I truly was and never be what I am capable of doing.
Yes I know I have a full truck of things in front of me but why can't I see the good out of it? I do and I want to keep on thinking positive.
Even when things feel like shit or I just want to give up, I can't.
We all run are race different but one thing I know about me is I can't be scared to express myself. I learn from work as I give myself a pep talk before I go in my day turns out aswome!!!!Seriously it does as I do say " I am the Boss...I can do this....I have something to give....I'm a bad mama"
Now it's time for me to express myself and clear my mind. I want more and I sure want to live with peace in my mind.
Hakuna Matata
( come on from the lion king)
My Journey My Life.....
I want to be myself but it seems like I don't fit or maybe I haven't found the right place. What I mean by the right place I'm talking about my career.
I know what I love but does it really fit in society? I have thought about just letting everything go and just go crazy and have a drink or so...ok maybe that means I just want to be my old self again.
Having 4 kids make you look back on life. Where did I go wrong? What turn could I have taken so this wouldn't have happen? Will Mr Right come along? Will I ever LOVE again?
Even though these things might pop up in my mind I know all of it happen for a reason.
Someone told me a long time ago to stop looking at things like they are not a problem. Being happy even if things don't go right. Stop looking at that child like it's a blessing or even just stop being happy because there is no reason to be happy.
I have been living a miserable life for far to long that I have came to realize I was nev er living for myself.
Past my years on this earth I have felt things, heard thing and even done things that I wish I could change but then I would have never learn from my past mistakes. Never saw who I truly was and never be what I am capable of doing.
Yes I know I have a full truck of things in front of me but why can't I see the good out of it? I do and I want to keep on thinking positive.
Even when things feel like shit or I just want to give up, I can't.
We all run are race different but one thing I know about me is I can't be scared to express myself. I learn from work as I give myself a pep talk before I go in my day turns out aswome!!!!Seriously it does as I do say " I am the Boss...I can do this....I have something to give....I'm a bad mama"
Now it's time for me to express myself and clear my mind. I want more and I sure want to live with peace in my mind.
Hakuna Matata
( come on from the lion king)
My Journey My Life.....
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