part 2 of new writing
I'm afraid to admit to myself that this might not be the day. They day I have choosen.
"How is your smoothie?" He asked with a charming smile as he looked at me with his eyes melting my insides but in a good way.
" It taste great. How can a lady not love a berry boost."
I sip my drink so I didn't have to say more. I wanted to end this semi date.
" great, do you run often? Goldie and I run every morning except Saturday."
Of course I didn't want to answer as this might led to another question to another that we start to get personal..I can't.
" Yes this is all great but I better get going."
I got up to only have Goldie look up at me and Tommy trying to figure out what just happen.
"Wait,maybe we can catch up again or maybe tonight?"
This guy wouldn't give up.
" hmmm, maybe but I have to go" while I left the juice place trying to get some air I found my south wondering if I really am going to go to the rocks.
" I'm sorry to keep bothering you but can we meet up at Josie's?
Tommy wanted me to finalize it. I wasn't sure if I could.
" we shall see" I walked on with a smirk on my face. Of course he came along walking beside me. " I'm sorry if I'm stepping on your feet but something is bothering you. We can talk if you like"
I chuckle as he was willing to save me. Out of 5 years I have planned every detail how I would just let it all go he was the only one that saw.
"Well, yes there is but why do you think you can help me?"
I wanted to know how and why?
" well let's take a set."
we sat on the bench facing the water.
" you seemed to he bothered with your past. it's all in your face as I saw you run from a distnace. I actually see you run every time I run but I never was man enough to come to you so Goldie did it for me."
He looked at his dog and back at me.
" my past hunts me as I try to make it right. It seems like I never can. It seems impossible."
I stared out in the ocean wanting to dive in.
" Your past is your past.You are in the now. Leave old things behind and live now as tomorrow never promise."
They way he thinks is way spiritual then I could imagine.
" I let myself fall for a guy which was not good for me. He fooled me and took advantage of me but I never saw it that way until I saw myself in the mirror. I was insecure about myself. I thought I was nothing nor did I understand friendship. High school years can sometimes where you down. Once your turn 18 you are out hoping college will turn your life around."
I stop talking as I said to much. I know it will be the last time he will see me alive.
"High school..ha years of fun but why worry as you are a beautiful woman. "
I stop him before he could go on.
"Dying is easier to do then keep going with past mistake. why live as you took onces life. Selfishness I call it and caring what others think"
Tears feel as he whip them away.
"My past is my past as I'm sure I can tell you how many ladies I have been with and the sleepless nights trying to hang with the in crowd. I'm here at age 25 trying to make things right for the rest of my future.
How about, if you don't mind come to my place. I'm not trying to do anything but give you a different view of life. Show you that things can change only if you let it and let go of the past.
There I saw myself going with this stranger in just meet and willing to save my life. Not like I cared if he killed because that was my planned anyways.
My eyes winded at the sight as I walked in his house.
I hope you enjoy the book so far
"How is your smoothie?" He asked with a charming smile as he looked at me with his eyes melting my insides but in a good way.
" It taste great. How can a lady not love a berry boost."
I sip my drink so I didn't have to say more. I wanted to end this semi date.
" great, do you run often? Goldie and I run every morning except Saturday."
Of course I didn't want to answer as this might led to another question to another that we start to get personal..I can't.
" Yes this is all great but I better get going."
I got up to only have Goldie look up at me and Tommy trying to figure out what just happen.
"Wait,maybe we can catch up again or maybe tonight?"
This guy wouldn't give up.
" hmmm, maybe but I have to go" while I left the juice place trying to get some air I found my south wondering if I really am going to go to the rocks.
" I'm sorry to keep bothering you but can we meet up at Josie's?
Tommy wanted me to finalize it. I wasn't sure if I could.
" we shall see" I walked on with a smirk on my face. Of course he came along walking beside me. " I'm sorry if I'm stepping on your feet but something is bothering you. We can talk if you like"
I chuckle as he was willing to save me. Out of 5 years I have planned every detail how I would just let it all go he was the only one that saw.
"Well, yes there is but why do you think you can help me?"
I wanted to know how and why?
" well let's take a set."
we sat on the bench facing the water.
" you seemed to he bothered with your past. it's all in your face as I saw you run from a distnace. I actually see you run every time I run but I never was man enough to come to you so Goldie did it for me."
He looked at his dog and back at me.
" my past hunts me as I try to make it right. It seems like I never can. It seems impossible."
I stared out in the ocean wanting to dive in.
" Your past is your past.You are in the now. Leave old things behind and live now as tomorrow never promise."
They way he thinks is way spiritual then I could imagine.
" I let myself fall for a guy which was not good for me. He fooled me and took advantage of me but I never saw it that way until I saw myself in the mirror. I was insecure about myself. I thought I was nothing nor did I understand friendship. High school years can sometimes where you down. Once your turn 18 you are out hoping college will turn your life around."
I stop talking as I said to much. I know it will be the last time he will see me alive.
"High school..ha years of fun but why worry as you are a beautiful woman. "
I stop him before he could go on.
"Dying is easier to do then keep going with past mistake. why live as you took onces life. Selfishness I call it and caring what others think"
Tears feel as he whip them away.
"My past is my past as I'm sure I can tell you how many ladies I have been with and the sleepless nights trying to hang with the in crowd. I'm here at age 25 trying to make things right for the rest of my future.
How about, if you don't mind come to my place. I'm not trying to do anything but give you a different view of life. Show you that things can change only if you let it and let go of the past.
There I saw myself going with this stranger in just meet and willing to save my life. Not like I cared if he killed because that was my planned anyways.
My eyes winded at the sight as I walked in his house.
I hope you enjoy the book so far
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