Hello again

  Hi again who ever is reading this.
I'm sure you have been reading my blogs or maybe just new. Welcome as I let you inside me crazy unsure life of difficulty, loneliness, and so much more I can barely wrap my head around. I guess life have taken my on another roller-coaster that I can barely keep up. My mind seems to be spinning I can barely remember anything.
  First off I'm suppose to go out tonight but I didn't bother asking my mom to watch the kids because she won't. I can hear here say I need to spend more time with the kids. I work all the time and so on. Plus you have a 16month old baby, you should have time to go out. But this year for my birthday after the sabbath I might just go out. I'm seeing if a musical is playing or something. I know I will be all by myself but I will be okay with that. Basically I'm canceling tonight going out :(
   That's what happens when you are single, kids and living with your parents.

 Next is trying to survive the snow this year. Oh how I really dislike how the snow comes down and I have to go to work. More stress then I want on top of other things.
  Work...dang what can I say about that. It sucks a lot of days but I suck it up and try to be positive. I'm even trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. It's like a dead end and you are trying to figure out away out. I will surely I hope. please don't feel sorry for me yet. If you haven't.....that's great.
   what else can I tell you about my crazy life
 Oh well I still got it going on as this nice gentleman was willing to see be twice  as I stop at his store to get soup and he decides to come to my job twice but I was basically not interested and I have having a shitty day since my boss was being well...rude. I was upset but I kept it moving and couldn't wait to go home.
  Tell you the truth love is out the window because I have to much shit going on.
 The kids father seems to want to call but I decline every time he try to make contact. if you going to be homeless or whatever is going on you are cut off.
    Hopefully as the sun falls I can go outside to have a clearer mind with the garage up and watch as the snow fall some more,
  Darn life




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