stuck? Maybe not

I complain about life how it gave me more then I can bare. I have been so patient to things that I never thought I could. I even try and find the light in the most worst things that I feel could get better.
   Now I am at the crossroads with my decision to leave work. I want to leave because I know I need to be doing more for my children. Spend more time with them as they grow. There bodies are changing to getting older. I can tell they do need mommy but mommy is so tired I can keep my head above water.
   I don't even know how to cry anymore as every time I try to seems to never come as I am crying all the time inside. I guess that's what happens when everything you ever wanted and dream goes so wrong.
    I learn to get over it and keep it moving.
Work is okay but I know I can't stay. Leaving seems to be complicated as one person is leaving next week as she is going back home. I'm looking for jobs but turn plenty of them down because the pay was to low. School seems to be a better option but how do a balance work, school, and family?
   Less hours, school and family all the time. How much do I sacrifice?
I have no clue but saving at this point seems to be my best option.
 I'm justs thinking out loud on paper but there have to be a end point to where I can be somewhat satisfied where I will be. Some type of balance.
  I can relax and work more on me.
      Shit, I have no idea what I am doing but somehow I will get where I need to be. wish me luck!!




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