Venting
I thought this would bring us closer together and I can tell him how I am taking everything. But, everything is in the air now. Disappointed and sad at the same time to where I am angery he have prove nothing to me. I am unsure if he will pay his part of the rent as I wait until April 3rd which is the last day off rent to get paid. I am hoping he calls to let me know he paid or I will call the leasing office to ask if he did before they close that day.
Paying rent all by myself since January is a lot a person didn't attend to do. I took it all in hoping he will pay his part but never did. help out when it wasn't even my bill waiting for him to payback. Now I have sad no. No because I have no more to give to a person who keeps taking. He doesn't see it as he says he does.
I see it as, if he cared he would just get a job to help out. no instant cart or uber eats as I have seen nothing come my way. If you can not pay rent then you need to find another line of work. That's how I see it as. I can understand if a person is trying but when he is not or picky then I have no respect for that person. I lost it. having kids and taking care of business means you need to get your ass up and do better and work. So, 2 more months and all of it will be done.
I have no idea where he is going but I know where I am going. Time will heal and maybe he can stand on his own two feet but I realize a lot as I should have just let him be. let him learn to stand on his own two feet. I hope he does as this world is only going to get worse.
That is finally off my chest as I sip on my wine as I let fresh air come in my room while laundry is being done late at night. The train seems to come everyone 30min to a hour. The baby is sleeping and the other three are up watch late night TV.
I have no idea what to do tomorrow as life will be life. It will be 4th day of stay at home. So far we have been going out side every since it started. Planting seems to be a bust since I will need more soil and pots. Mental not, I will get that at Walmart or Home Depo soon.
yes, I am bored so I should clean more. Hopefully I can find a good book to read in the house or some type of DIY . I have been cooking which is fun at time and baking. Soon I will bake some Oatmeal cookies as it will be fun to do.
Yes, life is okay and slow. Still up in the air of what to do.
My Journey My Life
Paying rent all by myself since January is a lot a person didn't attend to do. I took it all in hoping he will pay his part but never did. help out when it wasn't even my bill waiting for him to payback. Now I have sad no. No because I have no more to give to a person who keeps taking. He doesn't see it as he says he does.
I see it as, if he cared he would just get a job to help out. no instant cart or uber eats as I have seen nothing come my way. If you can not pay rent then you need to find another line of work. That's how I see it as. I can understand if a person is trying but when he is not or picky then I have no respect for that person. I lost it. having kids and taking care of business means you need to get your ass up and do better and work. So, 2 more months and all of it will be done.
I have no idea where he is going but I know where I am going. Time will heal and maybe he can stand on his own two feet but I realize a lot as I should have just let him be. let him learn to stand on his own two feet. I hope he does as this world is only going to get worse.
That is finally off my chest as I sip on my wine as I let fresh air come in my room while laundry is being done late at night. The train seems to come everyone 30min to a hour. The baby is sleeping and the other three are up watch late night TV.
I have no idea what to do tomorrow as life will be life. It will be 4th day of stay at home. So far we have been going out side every since it started. Planting seems to be a bust since I will need more soil and pots. Mental not, I will get that at Walmart or Home Depo soon.
yes, I am bored so I should clean more. Hopefully I can find a good book to read in the house or some type of DIY . I have been cooking which is fun at time and baking. Soon I will bake some Oatmeal cookies as it will be fun to do.
Yes, life is okay and slow. Still up in the air of what to do.
My Journey My Life
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