Life sometimes get me down but I have things to do.
I failed over the weekend a bit when it came to getting in the word. I know it doesn't mean much to others but it does mean something to me. I think since I have a lot on my mind, getting in the word was something that was difficult for me to do. I need to sit down somewhere quiet without any kids and think. See where my head is at.
Today is going to be a hot day which I have work. Smiling and saying how beautiful it is outside as I stay inside until the store close.
Dealing with my mom negatively doesn't help. Telling me I'm not going to stay with that job anyways. (which is true) But I have to put in the work until I leave to go on unpaid maternity leave. From there I can see if I want to go back after the baby is boren.
Doing paper work for kids new school to calling another to let them know I have picked a school closer to me. Then filling out child support paper work I have been putting off is a lot.
I still need to get things for the baby and asking my brothers if they are going to get something for her seems to not work for me. I told them I'm registered at target and BabysRus but still nothing from them.
Does it hurt? Yes. Why? Because when they need something I'm there(Money wise) Even if they need someone to lift them up I'm there. the reality is they forgot or they don't have the money right now. I'm going to leave that a lone.
Can the father of the baby help? The answer to that is no. He is trying to pay his car payment and insurance. His parents don't know so that's a no. I sure don't want to ask my parents so I keep it on the low and get what I really need.
I talked to the kids father once for My son's Birthday on friday and that's it. I was casual about it but I won't be calling back.
So yes there is a lot of things on my mind and getting things done in a timely matter that I need to stop putting off. I even need to see about Elijah half day Kindergarten. I'm sure I can qualify for some aid for full-time
Doing this a lone with out a partner is hard. I'm greatful for my parents but I know my kids need a dad around. that makes me sad some days as I have to pick up the weight which I'm trying to slow down to do but I can't. To many things to do in so little time.
All I can do is pray. Please pray for me whoever reads this.
Today is going to be a hot day which I have work. Smiling and saying how beautiful it is outside as I stay inside until the store close.
Dealing with my mom negatively doesn't help. Telling me I'm not going to stay with that job anyways. (which is true) But I have to put in the work until I leave to go on unpaid maternity leave. From there I can see if I want to go back after the baby is boren.
Doing paper work for kids new school to calling another to let them know I have picked a school closer to me. Then filling out child support paper work I have been putting off is a lot.
I still need to get things for the baby and asking my brothers if they are going to get something for her seems to not work for me. I told them I'm registered at target and BabysRus but still nothing from them.
Does it hurt? Yes. Why? Because when they need something I'm there(Money wise) Even if they need someone to lift them up I'm there. the reality is they forgot or they don't have the money right now. I'm going to leave that a lone.
Can the father of the baby help? The answer to that is no. He is trying to pay his car payment and insurance. His parents don't know so that's a no. I sure don't want to ask my parents so I keep it on the low and get what I really need.
I talked to the kids father once for My son's Birthday on friday and that's it. I was casual about it but I won't be calling back.
So yes there is a lot of things on my mind and getting things done in a timely matter that I need to stop putting off. I even need to see about Elijah half day Kindergarten. I'm sure I can qualify for some aid for full-time
Doing this a lone with out a partner is hard. I'm greatful for my parents but I know my kids need a dad around. that makes me sad some days as I have to pick up the weight which I'm trying to slow down to do but I can't. To many things to do in so little time.
All I can do is pray. Please pray for me whoever reads this.
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