Feeling like.....

April 24,2020

I feel like I have lost my days at times. I have to look at the calander just to check. 

  Well today I want to talk about feeling alone. Like everyone around this world feels alone in someway or another. Without a spouse but you have family around you or no one around you.

  I have family around me but no spouse. I wonder if I would ever get one( probably not anytime soon. People are dying) I guess not having that person to talk to sucks. I thought even with all this going on I would still have that person but Yah has another plan for me. 

  Discuss this to my readers feels like a open book.  It helps me as I let it out. I'm planning to grow myself as all this shit is happening.

   School for kids are going to be at home  as I plan that out. Money tight but there is always a way. 

  I'm planning to be her for a while as things seems to feel like it might just get better but I know it won't.  If I have to wear gloves and a mask when I go out and I'm sure if work reopens I have to do the same. 

  I'm still planning in looking at places to live but I'm going to wait until 2021 to move out. I might have to help out my parents a little longer. 

  But I do miss talking to my kids father

 I guess he is just to selfish and it sucks at times but it is what it is. 

  I'm taking every day one day at a time. I try to but on a smile and keep going. Everyday is a blessing to be here. Trying not to take it forgrated.

  As I watch the tree branch blows in the wind, I know I get another chance to live. Worry well why worry when I'm trying to do right. 

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