Do I celebrate Thanksgiving?/ hmmm

It's Thanksgiving in America. As everyone is around family and enjoying food, I have been debating about life. I have woke up in a okay attitude. Then I found myself striating myself and getting myself up to get ready to go out later. Which by the way, much need it. 

   My family do not celebrate Thanksgiving but are feast is right around the corner. Instead we drove downtown to look at the lights. We found are self's rushing into Safeway before they close. with cheer in the air as my kids was glad it was snowing and my mom seems happy, I took a picture to capture the moment. We needed something different. 

   The end of my day was pretty great as I felt the snow hit my face. The chill coming in on me as I rush inside the house, I forgot about all the craziness that had earlier.

  I was stress out about money that I forgot about a bill that I became depress a bit. I don't like forgetting about bills and I feel a certain way. I'm hoping the insurance guy will let me pay on the 2nd. I will be paying insurance twice but that is what I get when I miss a bill. Feeling overwhelmed, I found myself applying to jobs where I had no choice but to work on Saturdays if need be. Unemployment was not cutting it and I need to pay bills. Everything else I need for my kids, I found myself applying to jobs. 

  Once I went to my email I saw it, the job I applied to and had a interview over the phone gave me hope. Cheer came to my face as I try to not get to excited. I got the job. All I need to do is the paper work, which I am going to do tonight and turn it in tomorrow by email. I know this is the first step of something new. My future is changing for the better.

     I'm understanding that I need to take the leap. I need to give it all and 100 percent in what I do. I might be able to go to school online later. Do so much more but everything is a process. Even if things start to change in the world, I know yah has my back. 

 A lot of things won't make since. The door will close and another one will open on time. Not when you want it to but when he wants it to. 

  I'm just the passenger in the car as Yah is in the driver side. Showing me, telling me where I should go at the exact moment in time. I guess I better stop whining and star listening. He never let me down. 

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