Saddest part....

 The saddest part during these days of winter is being alone. It is going to be a long cold winter. As the candles light in my room. I will feel the cheer of what I do have. Bless to have but one thing will be missing. The other part of me. the person that would enjoy each moment, memories and talk to as the world goes a little crazy. Instead I will be working from home. Putting on a smile and acting like everything is okay. When it's time to turn off the computer to the kids are fast asleep. The snow blows through the night, I will be the one wondering where is my better half. Maybe we all don't get one. I guess I need to realize that as well. 

   A older gentlaman said "Do not give up on love" as he said more. I guess he sees I am more beautiful then I think. Intelligent and strong that I can not see. As I try so hard to give up on love, my heart get's smaller each month, by the time spring comes I will be numb to love. It won't exist  I have been alone since June. It didn't really hit me until now I guess. Like really hit me where my new normal will be me getting old by myself. 

  People will die off. The world will keep spinning and I will be wondering where time went. Instead I put a smile on my face. A face of a lonely lady that will be settle. Accomplish many things but still have the emptiness inside her. That's just how life is I guess. You don't always get what you want. 

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