Today : /

Times like this when work is slow I feel a certain way which is not good but im still going. Work is slow and I have no one to call or take my mind off of things which makes me want to cry. So tired of these dam slow jams.
  I think working out will help me as I have to cook when I get home.
 Oh yeah it sucks planning out things yourself knowing it will be hard doing all by yourself without that other person. It's hard out here in these streets. Hahahah...
More money should be coming my way soon. That will help with my expenses.
Having my own spot really sounds nice but affording it by myself ha that's going to have to wait
   Living in my parents basement which my mom thought that would be cool when she gets her new house seems pretty sad in away but I can build from there.
  I guess I am building on my own and it's a lot to swallow.
  I'm not going to lie I wish he would come back but maybe it's for the better. Maybe he is not going where I'm going. I really might be to much for him as I hope the next person can handle me.
   The first thing I need to do is write my plans down and do a visual board. I will start day.
   Today is the first day I am going to let myself go. No contact with my ex. I have a piece of paper I wrote on. Well I did some to get me moving towards the right path and not focus on the past as that's behind me now.
  On my paper today no contact at all with my ex. No social media to where I'm going to focus on the now. If I can go three days I can go more and before I know it all of it will be in the past.
  I guess I better get back to focusing on work. Ha nothing to do anyways.





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