My thoughts (unsure but it's okay)

There is something I can understand and some I can not.
  I'm at a crossroad where I feel their is no point of me being where I'm at right now.
 I don't want to go to the funeral tomorrow but i want to pay my respects. Showing up is great but being there for someone seems to be okay with me not being fully there.
  I could have left early and he qould haven't notice. If I showed up for him to just see I made it all I would have to do is leave as he would think I'm in the crowd somewhere.
    Maybe I'm overreacting but im tired and been every since i got here.
  Trying my best to put on a smile and finish up tomorrow without any worries

 
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