Fuck You...venting

 Hello my readers. This is going to be a vent section,

   Fuck!!!!! I say as I want to scream out loud. 

My dad asks me if I have work tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I told him I quit. He was like why you quit.

  This is where I wanted to blow up. This is where I wanted to say I took the fucking job because your ass wasn't going to stay home with your wife aka my mom. I took the dam job because I wanted a little extra income just to have while I take care of my mom. Not like I was asking for you guys to pay my dam bills or whatever else I need.

  I could have gotten a great job. One that pays more. One that is full-time but no I didn't. I fucking sacrifice more than any mother fucker knows. 

  sorry about my cursing but I am heated. When I quit a job that doesn't even pay for a dam apartment for me to live in with my kids to actually go find one that does, support me DAMM IT!!!!!

  But no that is too much to ask for. Instead, you want me to stay at a job that pays almost my bills and then work like a slave. Naw nigga fuck that shit. 

  This job was only temporary. I was never supposed to keep it. My mom even told me to go get another job. I should have but I couldn't. I wanted to make sure I was here all the way to the end. 

   Once she passed you was talking about me getting my own place. You help me out.

 Like really, what the fuck!!!! Yeah, I can totally get my own place with the shitty job that I cannot afford rent with plus 4 kids. 

    Now I'm choosing to quit my job to go get one that actually will pay for a 2 bedroom not a 3 because it is way too much where I live at. I sure don't want to live somewhere that I dislike

  It's true, you pay for what you get. I'm going to be grinding looking for a job and move the fuck out. 

As I learn something different and do what I'm supposed to do this month, right now I'm saying, "FUCK YOU!!!!"

It's time for me to be selfish. I'm fucked anyways so I might as well be a little selfish and do what I feel is right for me and my kids. 

At the end he won't be here anyways.

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