Ah..my last night blog until I feel asleep

Love is something I thought was lost in the shadows of my heart. It linger back to only have him tell me the ugly truth as well. The doubts, the concerns and the sham he feels. But all he had to do is pick up the phone for me to help him. When things get hard and he felt alone, he should have called and I would have lifted him up. Turn him away from the bad to the good. Now he is learning to be at peace and do what he needs to. Even if things get difficult he will be okay.
   He forgot I was his best friend. Someone he can talk to about anything with. He forgot I was there for him when things were shitty and great. He doesn't realize things can't change if you don't change. Do something different even if it's not what you want but you are getting closer to what you want. I understand there will be a time and a place when things will fall in place. Patience is all I have right now. Planning and looking forward to great things. I know it doesn't seem like it but it will be great.

    With the stress and thoughts I had last night, I still have to do me.