Quick blog

This is going to be a quick blog.  This morning I was trying to do everything by myself in order like I always do. Once my dad step in trying to help for some odd reason it was annoying to me. I shouldn't be annoyed but I was. Then I realize he does so much already by letting me stay here, I just wanted to at least do this one thing for him. not to worry about anything but me doing this for my kids and him not having to help. I broke down and cried toward the end but my mom said "He is just trying to help since he is not able to sometimes." Which I understand but sometimes I want to give them a break.
    Just maybe me building up all this anger inside me from not having my fathers kids here yet it's affecting me to where I can't think straight all the way. That scares me to now I have to distance myself from him. He will come when he comes but planning things out by myself I have to do.
   I thought we could do that together and sacrifice somethings but he wants to go to school down there which will be 6months and not to much money which i understand.  Life must go on and now I have to make decisions that will better my life. Having to plan everything by yourself is not easy but I have to do it.  If I don't I will be stuck where I am at right now. Lost and confused waiting for my knight and shinning armor to safe me.