31 weeks and 2 days
Oh wow, I'm so exhausted that I can barely believe I'm still going. All I wanted to do is cry and cuddle up back under my sheets. waking up at 5:30am to start my day and then wake the kids up at 6am. I manage to just put grapes in a bag for the kids and juice but now I'm trying to figure out what to give them. I didn't even go to the market to get chips.
making my coffee this morning as my energy is so down, I spill some of my cream. I knew I was tired then. Man it is not easy being single and pregant with 3 kids to take care of.
First of I have been working since Friday and today I work but then I have 4 days off but I know it ain't much. working to only get a 300 something paycheck and that's for 2 weeks. I know it's not much but I have to still pay for somethings.
Rushing across the street to get to work and stand up for a couple of hours to sitting to help people. There is a point where I'm like... " Dam I'm really am tired. I don't feel like saying hi anymore. I don't feel like bring cheery anymore. I don't want to hear people say It must be FUN working here." That's one quote I dislike hearing because how can something be fun working at if you can barely place money in ur pocket to have...no benifits at all and you can't get 40 hours if you wanted to. This place is temporarily as I keep going towards something better. I'm sure they will understand but I'm waiting until I have the baby. Knowing I don't get maternity pay so it's unpaid leave I'm saving a little.
This is where the problem comes in. I wanted to take off at 36 weeks but I can't. First off I have 3 other children I need to take care of and school will be done. Plus, my body won't be able to handle it. Having to walk a distance to the store and back. Working 3 days and might get 7 hours is it really worth it? That's what I ask myself as I try to look up things online to see what other people did but no help.
I'm going to do me and throw in the towel as I'm exhausted from the time I go to work to the time I get home. Not a great paycheck and plan and simple... I'm F**** tired and I need to rest before the baby comes.
so my last day will have to be me at 35 weeks. That's what I'm going to do. I hope I make it until then.
making my coffee this morning as my energy is so down, I spill some of my cream. I knew I was tired then. Man it is not easy being single and pregant with 3 kids to take care of.
First of I have been working since Friday and today I work but then I have 4 days off but I know it ain't much. working to only get a 300 something paycheck and that's for 2 weeks. I know it's not much but I have to still pay for somethings.
Rushing across the street to get to work and stand up for a couple of hours to sitting to help people. There is a point where I'm like... " Dam I'm really am tired. I don't feel like saying hi anymore. I don't feel like bring cheery anymore. I don't want to hear people say It must be FUN working here." That's one quote I dislike hearing because how can something be fun working at if you can barely place money in ur pocket to have...no benifits at all and you can't get 40 hours if you wanted to. This place is temporarily as I keep going towards something better. I'm sure they will understand but I'm waiting until I have the baby. Knowing I don't get maternity pay so it's unpaid leave I'm saving a little.
This is where the problem comes in. I wanted to take off at 36 weeks but I can't. First off I have 3 other children I need to take care of and school will be done. Plus, my body won't be able to handle it. Having to walk a distance to the store and back. Working 3 days and might get 7 hours is it really worth it? That's what I ask myself as I try to look up things online to see what other people did but no help.
I'm going to do me and throw in the towel as I'm exhausted from the time I go to work to the time I get home. Not a great paycheck and plan and simple... I'm F**** tired and I need to rest before the baby comes.
so my last day will have to be me at 35 weeks. That's what I'm going to do. I hope I make it until then.
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