Tired and want to scream

I want to Scream. I literally want to scream as my so called help is not helping me with things I really need help with.
  Maybe this is something I would have to deal with as a single mom in my own place.
 So, my mother helps when she wants to as it is not her responsibility but I would had pressure the father of my kids to come down sooner. Maybe I would have cut him off sooner. I will have to do that soon. Not because I want to but if you can't do anything for your kids...you don't need to see them. Glad he has a job but it sure nit feeding them or clothes on there backs.

   Maybe that's what my mom is trying to show me but being negative with breastfeeding at work I don't need.
  I hope everything goes well with that but working and kids...school and activities for them. I really might have to consider overnight.
  I found one but unsure if I will get it. I better apply soon.

  Ha that's funny. Me applying to a job seems to take me forever until it's gone. going back to my other job seems ok but I'm still trying to figure out school next semester and breastfeeding. Never really thought about it but I pray I figure something out.

  MY CRAZY LIFE....SINGLE AND TIRED