My night as I settle down.

Time has passed and now it's 10 and I am tired but somehow I manage to eat a box of cookies from sprouts to only leave one

 Ok maybe I didn't eat all the 12 cookies but this is how I'm coping with having to make decisions about my life. What I have to leave behind makes me sad and what I'm going to gain is like a unsure future.

  So yes I'm deciding to stuff my mouth with sweets and drink organic soda on top of it. I know it's not good for me but its ok to do it once in a while.  Drinking a bottle of wine all to myself is out of the option. I gotta breastfeed so I'm settling with cookies.

  please don't judge and don't act like you haven't tried to eat a while box of cookies by yourself.

  Back to my night...leftovers which was pretty good as only 2 kids are up but being good, I found myself roaming around trying to figure out what to watch on TV that I landed on  Baby Momma movie. I laughed as I saw it and I figure why not. 

  About to sit down I decided to brush me teeth as I have ate to munch junk food with soda on top of that as well.  l was my make up off that I finally decide to put on so I could look decent going out even though inside I feel like shit as I bust my butt to get things done along with being a mom which is a full time job. Someone have start making the next generation.... (hahaha)

  I'm going to relax as I'm full and watch the movie and laugh and enjoy as much of it as possible. Sooner or later I will have to breastfeed soon.