Myself....my issues? Naw the truth
I woke to only see myself doing the same thing over and over. To only get back in the routine of getting back to work which my first day was on Wednesday. A 8 hour shift that I felt out of place for a little bit to only remind me why I wanted to leave. Unpacking a item to pricing it, I thought to myself "Is this it? Am I going to do this the rest of my life?"Tell you the truth this is not what I want.
I have been searching and applying and searching for the right job I want to enjoy but nothing really caught my eye. I have settle for less which made me unhappy. I have never done what was right for me every since my Jr year before school which I will eventually talk about one of these days in my blog but I have to be strong.
Ha that's what I tell myself all the time but does it really help? Sometimes but clearing out what is not good for me is very painful and hurts.
Deciding to change my whole life in one day seems dreadful as I clear out everything I was once new my entire 29 years. Letting go of happy memories where I enjoyed family during the Christmas Holidays to going out on Fridays and Saturdays at certain time to so much more that if I list all them I would have 2 blogs... (okay maybe not but still so much to let go
off)
I will have to let go off my ex meaning nit loving him or caring for him to be with me. Not because I want to but because living right sometimes means letting go and doing what is right in Yahs eyes. Maybe if he believed and see what I see everything would work out. Now I have is myself now. I have just me going through this roller coaster trying so hard to be.....that's it I don't know what to call it but it will come to me.
I wish I can relate to someone that understands the pain and frustration I go through and how this walk is not a easy one.
But this is my life...My journey I'm taking to only see things different from other people as the pressure of society doesn't help at all.
I have been searching and applying and searching for the right job I want to enjoy but nothing really caught my eye. I have settle for less which made me unhappy. I have never done what was right for me every since my Jr year before school which I will eventually talk about one of these days in my blog but I have to be strong.
Ha that's what I tell myself all the time but does it really help? Sometimes but clearing out what is not good for me is very painful and hurts.
Deciding to change my whole life in one day seems dreadful as I clear out everything I was once new my entire 29 years. Letting go of happy memories where I enjoyed family during the Christmas Holidays to going out on Fridays and Saturdays at certain time to so much more that if I list all them I would have 2 blogs... (okay maybe not but still so much to let go
off)
I will have to let go off my ex meaning nit loving him or caring for him to be with me. Not because I want to but because living right sometimes means letting go and doing what is right in Yahs eyes. Maybe if he believed and see what I see everything would work out. Now I have is myself now. I have just me going through this roller coaster trying so hard to be.....that's it I don't know what to call it but it will come to me.
I wish I can relate to someone that understands the pain and frustration I go through and how this walk is not a easy one.
But this is my life...My journey I'm taking to only see things different from other people as the pressure of society doesn't help at all.
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