Few Words Before Bed

It's midnight as I have been through a lot today with my own emotions but I am moving forward with or without him. As he said what he needed to say as he say it was not what you think and so on as he was doing deliveries. I guess when you get mess over the first time it never be the same like that. 

   As he spilled out his love for me I try not to have no emotional attachment because you never know. Yes 13 years of knowing someone but him still trying to do something with his life seems like he isn't going to get there but he just might. I saw a application in the car as he was giving me money he owe me. 

  Things are not healed yet and trust is gone. He needs to understand I can't help myself if I can not trust anymore...well him. 

  At midnight as I should go to bed, my kids are still up and ZZ had a late night as well. She went to bed close to 11pm. Pretty crazy so she should sleep good tonight. Had to brush her teeth while she slept. My oldest daughter took a bath so that should put her to sleep and now I'm waiting for all three to go to bed and I should be able to later. 

    As I'm running towards a better future, I try to stay focus even though all this BS that is going on. I guess sometimes you have to just keep moving forward even though shit seems to not make any since. 

   As I watch The Last Holiday with my daughter while she play on my phone, I know I will have a goodnight sleep. Getting up to go to work sucks as I know I have to because things need to get paid. 

   plus, I'm so close getting a car. Another blog for another day.

 life goes on right?

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