New Chapter...day 1

Today is different. I'm starting over again with life. A new chapter that I didn't expect to be in it all alone. Sucks yes but I have no idea how to coupe with my shit all by myself but I will learn. I'm holding in my tears as I have no time to cry again. I have to wait until all the kids are sleep and me all alone and tired. 

   Work tomorrow and the day after. I have to pretend life it great. Working is great and just smile. I really don't want to do that but what else is there to do? I have to keep myself and my mind occupied which is not helping at all at this point. I want to ball up and not leave my room but I have to soon. I have no time to cry and be in my bed for days. Focus on myself and my pain just for a week or month sounds nice.

   I will cry some more as I will distance myself from my ex. Like I said before this year sucks and I guess I better be ready for what else to come. 

   New chapter and today is day one. Deleted all the pictures of my past with him. Tomorrow changing number. dam that is going to cost me. Oh well tomorrow I will do that. Ask my mom to. after that I don't know.....keep on moving and see what life brings. 

ahhhhh….im tired 

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